Paleo Week 4: Losing my mind instead of weight.

by AliMargo on March 14, 2015

Weight: 133.0

Sunday Brunch: Chocolate Paleo Pancakes with a fried egg, served family style. Yum, but is that's what making me gain weight?

I was afraid to weigh myself this morning because it upsets and frustrates me so much, but I thought, “What if I’ve lost weight?” I went skinning up Tiehack yesterday with a friend who couldn’t believe I weigh over 130 (she is the same height as me and weighs a healthier 116 lbs). So I thought maybe I’m being too hard on myself; I hiked the Bowl three days in a row last week. During the day, I typically eat nothing more than a Lara Bar and an apple and do a hard workout. Well, I’m not being hard on myself. I’ve gained weight since last week, despite my efforts to eliminate more from what is already a pretty rigid elimination diet.

I thought it would help if I eliminated granola (I did) and mayo (ditto) and stuck to simple preparations of Paleo foods (done). As a result, I’ve pretty much been subsisting on grilled meats, roasted veggies, salads, avocadoes, green olives and nuts. No dressings, just olive oil and vinegar, salt and pepper. I do eat fruit, tangerines and apples and bananas (in the morning). My biggest treat is chocolate chia seed pudding, which I eat for breakfast and sometimes as a treat after dinner. A Lara bar with chocolate chips in it is like a chocolate sundae to me now.

I exercise 5-6 days a week: I either do a Bowl hike, a skin up Tiehack or a 75-90 minute hot power yoga class. I’m talking either doing intense cardio at a high elevation or sweating until your towel and clothes are soaked via an intense flow with advanced postures such as handstands, forearm stands, arm balances, deep backbends and plenty of core and leg work.

A Physical and Philosophical Dilemma
I’m currently reading “Still Alice” a novel about a woman who suffers from early onset Alzheimer’s Disease (Julianne Moore just won Best Actress for her role in the film adaptation) and just after her diagnosis, she eats an ice cream cone and decides that as soon as she can no longer enjoy the simple pleasure of ice cream, she wants to die. That resonated with me on a philosophical level: food is one of the simple pleasures in life. My husband and I love to cook and we love to eat. Our dream trip would be to travel around Italy and just eat. One of our favorite foods is handmade pasta.

While I’m finding plenty of flavorful foods on this program, I’m having a hard time imagining how I could live this way forever and denying myself the pleasure of eating a dish a chef has prepared that has an intentional balance of flavor and texture because I’ve asked them to eliminate half the ingredients in the dish.

Still struggling because …
I haven’t lost any weight.
I’m getting bored of grilled meats, salads and roasted veggies.
I miss Mexican food.
I haven’t lost any weight.
Going out to eat sucks: I can find options that taste good but it undermines the chef’s menu to request that half the ingredients be eliminated.
I’ve actually seen my weight slowly creep slowly back up.
I’m super frustrated.
I’m bored.
I don’t know what else to do.
I ran out of supplements yesterday and while I do love them and am seeing results, I can’t afford to spend over $100/month on supplements.

What can I say that’s positive?
Ummmm, I do feel good.
I sleep really well.
My clothes are fitting better, so I know my body is changing and leaning out. Maybe  should take measurements instead of weight?
I feel pretty strong.
Skin is still clear.
While I am bored of what I’m eating, my cravings have subsided.
If I could eat anything I wanted, I’m not sure what that would be. It’s not like I would run out and eat a bunch of snacks or grains. Maybe cheese and chocolate? But I would still stick to dark chocolate and sheep or goats milk cheese. So it’s not like I want these foods, exactly so this program does work in terms of severing those addictions and cravings.
I’m never bloated (a bonus since people have often mistaken me as pregnant in the past, and no, I’m not joking).

Things I need to work on still:
I just bought a pair of HokaOneOne running shoes and am super excited to try them. Dr. Scott says doing more cardio just makes you hungrier but I have the discipline to eat the same amount. Plus, running is the only form of exercise that ever helps me to lose weight, so long as I can do it without getting injured, and that’s what I’m hoping these shoes can do.

Maybe it is time to start counting calories.

What else can I cut out? Cashews?

I want to start eating more fresh, raw foods (that could be symptomatic of just being tired of winter). I am kind of tired of roasting everything to death, even though I get it that you want more substance on the plate and roasting tends to give things a “meatier” flavor. But I think I should have some more fresh, crisp and raw …

Am I using too much olive oil?

Focus on portion control? A smaller plate at dinner maybe?

No snacks after dinner (right now I allow myself two tangerines or some chia pudding).

No eating after 8 p.m.

No snacking other than portion controlled snacks between meals (1 piece of fruit or a Lara Bar).

Sorry I can’t be more positive, but I’m just reporting it as I go. I’m going to stick with it and am determined to see it through the last two weeks and I’m sure I’ll continue with many of the principles and nutritional science I’ve learned, but I have to figure out a way to lose weight. All I wanted was to lose 5-10 pounds, nothing drastic. I really want to figure out a way to that.

Still wishing I could hear from some of you out there. In addition to not losing weight, no one has commented on this damn blog I spend 2 hours on every Saturday.

XOXO,

Ali

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Anna March 14, 2015 at 7:58 pm

I love you! I’m on a doctor recommended diet for my stomach issues. It’s a mash up of Gluten-free/ paleo/ no foods that cause gas/ type of diet. It’s sorta lame but I do feel better. Feel you pain.

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AliMargo March 15, 2015 at 11:55 pm

Thanks, Anna! I feel better too. Funny that I am still complaining?

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Cara March 14, 2015 at 8:12 pm

I can’t believe no one has commented. I have read every entry. I’ve been so hoping that you would lose weight, but I think those last five-ten pounds are a struggle on any diet. I do know people who have become quite thin on paleo…well, one person. You must be taking in too many calories. What does your guru say? Anyway, stick with it these last two weeks and see what happens. If you haven’t reached your goal, make some adjustments. I wish you would have posted a full-body shot each week so we could actually see you. Maybe you really are making more progress than you think. Hang in there!!

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AliMargo March 15, 2015 at 11:54 pm

Thank you so much, Cara! I have been getting a lot of comments from friends that I look like I’ve lost weight. I think if I just keep going, I will turn the corner. I’m not giving up! I do have to say this diet does make me feel good and has been a winner for my skin so I think I’ll keep up with it even after the challenge is over. Thanks for reading and for your comments! It makes my day. Xxx

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